Overload.

I'm flailing.

I am currently reading five books. Five. Its not okay.

Some people need to be reading multiple book at one time, they have one for the gym, one for before bed, one for the morning. Not me. I am a one book kinda gal (maybe two), so how did this happen!? It happened because I am both stressed, and bored at the same time.

I am not the best at handling stress if it is coming from multiple places for multiple reasons. And moving back to Austin has been tough on me. I am not sure exactly what I want to do here, I know I want to write,  but I also know that's not enough. I need something more structured. I do well with structure.

So I have made a few new rules (I don't like the word Goals, unless its in sports, it just seems so optional, like setting yourself up to not have to commit to them) to follow to get myself on track. To focus, and relax, both at the appropriate times.

In no particular order these are my rules.

Train!
I am starting to train for a half marathon that will happen in February. I have some time to train, but I have a good deal of work to do before I am ready to do all that running . I will need to stay focused starting now.
I have a fake knee and hip and femur from a motorcycle accident when I was younger so I need to really be prepared if i want to make it threw the marathon.
I am going to focus on mid-high speed running, not muscle training. I will also focus a lot on stretching and rolling my muscles out.


Book control!
I am limiting my book consumption to two at a time at most. For example, one of the books I am reading right now has a lot of personal accounts of  9/11, during, and the aftermath. I love reading this book but if I start reading before I go to sleep, I just wont go to sleep. It hits me hard. So another book for bedtime is needed. But that's the limit!


This blog!
I am going to post something five times a week. No more and no less. I need to be able to take days off and not have it add to my stress level. But I also need to keep up with the posting if I am going to kick internet ass.

I'm sure when I have these things down I will add some more, I love lists and do will with rules/ structure.
Wow, if only my 15 year old punk self could read that, I would have kicked my ass.



Austin is a good city and I need to make the effort to start loving it the way so many other rad people do. I will be here for a while and I need to feel like its my home. California and New York seem to be pulling me apart and I need to make it stop. Austin is my home. This is my life.


Thank you and I love you.

xoxo